Cannonball

I am a breeder. And I have to say, so far I am not so good at it. 4 months to go before the conceived one pops out, and I am freaking out already about stupid furniture and stupid registry crap and all sorts. I am an ultra-organized person, and it is difficult to get organized when I have no idea what is going on.

I need a crib. Seriously, this crap is hard. You cant just walk in and say "Oh, I like this one, I think I will get it" you have to read consumer reports, and you have to shake it to test for sturdiness, you have to read reviews, and even then, how do I know it will be safe and the right one. Not to mention, they cost almost as much as my car.

and this is just for sleeping. what about all the rest?

The Doctor Change

So I called and switched doctors. I stayed in the practice, but decided to go to another doctor in the practice. And just as I suspected, I got a voice mail from the doctor apologizing, wishing me well, but also kind of laying on the guilt a bit, saying she wished I had talked to her, etc. However, that is the reason I am switching, I don't at all feel like I can talk to her. She has never engaged in conversation with me. She answers my question with one to five word answers, if there is an answer or an opportunity to ask at all. She was a fabulous clinician. I just need someone who will talk to me a bit more. Now however I am feeling tremendous guilt about this, and feeling really really bad. She was my doctor for 17 years. That is a lot of years. I think I am doing the right thing, but I don't know how to respond to her message without getting all emotional about it. I feel bad. I just do. But I also need to do what makes me comfortable. Urgh. I know, so much drama for something not that big. But in my world it kind of is. I actually see the new doctor tomorrow. I am hoping that after that appointment I will feel differently, not second guessing what I have done. If not, then I am basically screwed.

homebound

Our new little car is in the shop until Tuesday! Apparently, some major oil gasket thing was defective and there was a giant oil leak, and if we hadn't caught it when we did, it would seep into the engine and get into the spark plugs and seize up our engine. It's all covered under the warranty, so no worries.

However, that makes me without a car until then. Not that we don't have another, but tomorrow my hubby will be in Buffalo, so that leaves me home. I should take this opportunity to read and do some housework, but most likely I wont. I will probably watch cooking shows and veg out in the too hot weather.

Freaked out

There are too many things freaking me out right now, and I don't need the stress.

All sorts of family drama rearing its ugly head that I just don't think we need to be involved in. I am changing one of my doctors after 17 years and I am afraid of the clinical and personal ramifications. Mostly I don't want any confrontation or to have to explain myself. (And in the end, my odds of getting stuck with her are 1 in 10). And I just want to sleep all the way through a night again.

The Wedding and Carrier

My husband's youngest sister is getting married on the beach in Oak Harbor, WA in 15 minutes. And I am so sad that I am not there. I love his youngest sister so much, she is the nicest person in the world, and she is marrying a wonderful man, and she deserves much happiness. And I am totally bummed I am not there night now.

Anywho... sadness aside... I have been watching Carrier. I caught bits and pieces of this million part series on PBS and was IN LOVE. It is so well done. So I got the whole thing on Netflix. It is a documentary chronicling the navy's 6 month tour on the air craft carrier Nimitz. I know, who wants to watch something about the Navy? But it is phenomenal. In addition to learning what actually happens on an aircraft carrier, it follows the stories of a lot of the 5000 people who work on board the ship. Their personal stories, their stories of what goes on while on board, it follows them when they are on shore leave in various countries, and it has real, honest opinions from people actually living their life in the military, opinions about fighting the war, Iraq, and what they really truly think of being in the military. If you have some time to spare, or can sit and watch all 10 hours, get this documentary. It is so amazing. (you can watch full episodes on the PBS web site, or you can get the discs from Netflix.)

travelers beware, and one redeeming factor

This morning I took my husband to the airport. he is flying to Seattle. we had previously booked a flight on United at double the cost of what we paid last summer. He was to connect through Dulles. So we get to the airport at 4:30 am. he checks in. we say our good-byes. he goes through security. And I leave. As I am driving home, he calls to tell me they have cancelled his flight. 20 people had already checked in. and it was within 15 minutes of my husband checking in that they cancelled the flight. You cant tell me they didn't know they were going to cancel. couldn't they have just dealt with it when he checked in? So anyway, the plan was to re-route him through Chicago and then on to Seattle. I said call me with the details. I get a call at quarter to six, and now he is booked on an entirely different airline going through Atlanta. And in addition, there is a possibility that the commuter flight he was going to take from Seattle to Bellingham - he wont make. He will have to wait 3 hours for the next one. what a total pain.

however, the redeeming factor: Once he arrived in Seattle, he rushed to the Alaska Airlines (Horizon actually) desk to see if he could at a minimum get stand by for the flight that was shortly leaving. This was the flight he had hoped to catch rather than waiting 3 more hours. The attendant looked at him, said "No problem" printed him a boarding pass right there on the spot and that was that. He boarded 30 minutes later. No hassle of stand by. No hassle at all. Just said sure thing. What a relief after such a crap day. And, to top it off, they serve Jones soda on their planes and they have this handy dandy flight tracker! So all of you that get to travel Alaska Airlines on a regular basis (Zieak) I say you are lucky, very lucky indeed.

June movies

Charlie Bartlett
Be Kind Rewind
Fools Gold
Love and other Disasters
The Grand
Mama's Boy
Chaos Theory
The Bucket List
Once
Reservation Road
Death at a Funeral
August Rush
Semi Pro

I am predicting that movie watching will increase now that summer tv really sucks it big time.