insomnia

I woke up again in the middle of the night again, unable to get back to sleep.

This isn't all that unusual these days. But what really stinks is I lie in bed, worrying about everything. My job at a failing company and what kind of a humongous pay cut I would take it I had to leave and work elsewhere. I think about our finances. We aren't in bad shape, better than most Americans I would actually guess, but still not enough to make myself feel comfortable. i even worry about where we are going to move furniture since we have run out of rooms to move things and store things and I am just too pregnant to move boxes and furniture and go through storage items to determine what we need and what we can get rid of.

It's 5 am and I have already surfed the net, read the newspaper, watched the end of the men's gold medal basketball game (which oddly enough my husband woke up for at 4 am and came downstairs to watch, and then returned to bed, all without an alarm), played some majhong, and now I am typing this. I was contemplating unloading the dishwasher, but I think it would make too much noise.

And, I am hungry, and eating at 5 am when out of your schedule isn't really a good thing. not to mention, we don't have anything all that good in the fridge.

urgh, i hate this. what I hate the most though is I have my family coming over this afternoon. Since I am the only one with a backyard, I was asked to host a picnic for my dad's new girlfriend. woo hoo. which means I am going to have to be "on" today and with a lack of sleep, that may be difficult.

ok, i am going to get some orange juice and try to doze off while watching endless infomercials on my poor people no cable television.