return to the dark side

I made my official return to work plans. Boo. Hiss. Yuck.

The day care called me on Wednesday, and they let me know they had an opening sooner. Originally, they were not going to be able to take my little girl until March 13th. But they had an opening sooner. When you ask? Any time I wanted. (I want to never send her...)

So I called my boss. I will be going back to work on the 23rd of February. That week I will work only half days (more for my sanity than for anyone else) and then starting in March it will be full time again.

I am so sad and devastated. I think what makes it harder to deal with is that my mother in law will be coming for a visit the week before I go back. She is visiting from Florida. So really, that week with my daughter will not be about me and her. She will be all consumed by grandma, as she should be. My mother in law actually leaves that Monday morning. Which really leaves me only next week with her before she is with someone else all the time.

Don't get me wrong. I am in awe of this day care. they have amazing staff, a great curriculum in every classroom, and it is across the street from my house. I cant ask for better. I am impressed with them and I know she will do very very well there. It is just I never knew how hard it would be to face leaving her. I haven't been away from her for more than an hour in the last 8 weeks.

I have turned into a total sap. I guess kids will do that to you. I guess one good thing is that I will save a lot of vacation time this way, which I can then take later on. (If we all still have jobs then...)