Friday, January 2, 2009

alone

I went to the grocery store today. Alone. For the first time in 3 weeks I left the house without my child in my sight.

Everyone tells me "make sure you get some you time", "make sure you get out of the house and do things alone". I have to tell you - I hated every single minute of it. I hated not being around my kid. Not seeing her. Not hearing her. Not knowing what she was doing.

I even called my husband in the middle of shopping to ask what she was doing. She was asleep. Seriously. That is all I missed - sleep. Something that happens almost all day long.

I am pathetic. But I cant help it. I have 2 short months, then I go back to work, and then suddenly 12 years will have gone by and I will have no clue what happened to the time.

I am pathetic, I know. And I never knew I could be this sappy. But alas, it has happened.

2 comments:

The Luh's said...

you are cute. i'm glad it was awful in that sense... and not that something went terribly wrong. i'm not sure when i'll be able to leave Sariah... right now I can't drive so i'm excused!

Anonymous said...

you are lucky in a sense to be going back to work. the moms i know who work look so forward to seeing their kids at the end of the day - they make that time precious and happy. when you are around them all day for a long time it becomes montonous and you are anxious to get away. you take them for granted. you don't notice little things. you'll miss her when you're working, but you'll be such a doting and loving mom because of it.