I am a blogging slacker

So, I have been a total slacker with this blog. It started off so well. And I used to write about all the things I cooked. Well, I barely cook anymore. And then I wrote about being pregnant, and I am not that anymore either. And I don't want to make this all about my kid either.

Yesterday, i forgot my own phone number. I was responding to a message on my cell phone from one of my girlfriends. When I was leaving her the message, I said to call me back on my home phone, and when I started to give her the number, I drew a complete and total blank. And that was it, I just told her, " I don't know, I forgot my phone number, you can call the cell".

I did my "25 random things" about me on my facebook page. And I have been thinking about what to write all week long. I find it sad that I seriously have to contemplate these things.

I am sick of being cooped up in the house, but I am so loathing going back to work. And sometimes I wonder if I am in jeopardy of losing my job by being out. I know they cant lay me off when I am on maternity leave, but once that is over and I take vacation time...then it becomes risky. Not that I wouldn't jump at the chance to be a stay at home mom, I would but I know we cant afford it right now.

I would give anything to stay at home. I never thought I would. But now that I have this little Jr Mcnugget, I want nothing more. So all of our funds are going to pay off bills. that is the end of it. The more debt we can pay off, the closer I am to staying home. And of course saving 6 months income. Although, I would seriously have to consider what would happen to my retirement.....